In the search of focus . . .

I'm sitting here, listening to music (which is now muted because Pandora can't seem to find something I actually want to listen to), watching History Channel that is a show on comedy, reading the Authoress's new e-book "Agent Demystified" and am trying to write my current novel right now.

What I need . . . is focus.

It doesn't help that when I sit down and try to write that I'm so out of practice over the last several months that I end up writing a few sentences and then moving onto something completely different. Or I get up and walk away. I just can't seem to keep myself focused.

That being said, I've written several pages today. Which is several more than I have in the past month. Perhaps two. Is that a bad thing? Maybe. But I'm trying to keep myself down and working.

Now to turn off Pandora, close this, Agent Demystified, let Greg Behrendt finish his comedy special, turn off the TV, and grab my mp3 player so I can actually keep focused.

Maybe by the end of today I can actually hit two hundred pages. Only . . . twenty-two pages to go.

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Update: Focus did not come.

Back on Track?

Hey everyone . . . it's been a little bit. As you can see by the post below, I'm still trying my hand at the whole writing bit. I think I'm going to be finally getting back on track with the whole writing. Hopefully it'll get me back into my novel. My girlfriend (Miss Guilt in Black Panties) keeps telling me that I'll have it done by the end of the year - we'll see.

I really do hope I get it done. There are a couple of factors that are falling into the not category. One is that the holiday season is rapidly approaching (actually starting with this week)which means that dozens of games are releasing in the next month and a half - which means I'll be exceptionally busy at work which takes up most of my days. Plus I've been out of it for quite some time so hopefully I'll be able to ricochet back from my writing slump.

On the upside, however, I did just get a new laptop from Dell that will allow me to write whenever and wherever I feel. The last is the most important. I just can't seem to write when I'm at home, despite getting a two-bedroom apartment precisely for a writing/reading room. Oh well. Now I have my new laptop, I'll be able to write wherever, as long as I have some music to help inspire me and give me a rhythm to write to.

On a similar note, the Authoress is having a Secret Agent contest in which yours truly has been entered as Post 43. Please leave some good feedback for me. It is the first 250 words from my first novel, which Joe Keck is reading and editing for me currently, so it'll most likely be in very rough (and bleeding) shape when I get it back, but it needs it.

Until next time.

Justin

Going in the Opposite Way of Writing

Sometimes life just breaks down the door, grabs you, and pulls you out on a journey that ignores your pitiful screams of "WAIT!" and "I'm not ready yet!" And that's wher I've found myself for the last month.

For those of you not privy to the events of the past month, I've been promoted to the Store Manager of a (not-so-local) GameCrazy store. In this exodus to this store in Lawton (roughly an hour and a half away), I've had to move myself all the way there and take over a store that has been without a store manager for the last month (which is when I got the store but as held back at my old store until certain things got taken care of). Now I've taken over the store and am in the process of putting in a filing system and fixing the way they do paperwork.

What does all this mean?

I have had no time to write. I'm moving up in my company, but stalling out on my actual passion. Add to the fact that my laptop was stolen about a month ago and am now restricted to writing on random computers or at home on my desktop where there's so much shit to do that I cannot seem to focus on the writing at hand. I need to re-immerse myself in the world and will do my best to get back into the habit. Maybe I'll finish this book by the end of the year.

God I hope so.