Broken Illusions

She kissed like someone who was trying to remind herself that she did in fact love this man once. In the extended moments the kiss lingered on their lips, each person could tell that it was all over. The love had dried up long ago and every excuse that plagued their brain just made them more and more miserable. It was a fitting tribute to a brief life together that had lived long beyond its time.

She stared at him with gentle eyes that betrayed her true intent, "I'm sorry . . ."

"You don't have to be," he replied, already reducing her to a stranger once again, "it was bound to happen." He turned his back on the tears already sliding down her face. He pushed himself forward and out the door, unwilling to let her see the inner turmoil bubbling up to the surface. Without turning back, he said, "You can have anything you like. Just don't be here when I get back."

And with that, he was gone.

Music Meme

Here's a meme within a meme from Atomic Zebra's blog.

Instructions:
1. Open your music library (iTunes, winamp, media player, iPod, whatever) [I made an empty playlist in Windows Media Player, then drug the entire "My Music" folder into it.}
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question below, type the song that’s playing
5. New question — press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool

* Opening credits: Feed Us by Serj Tankian
So I never have really listened to this CD but it definitely has a driving guitar riff that makes me like it as an opener.

* Waking up: We Come Out at Night by Avenged Sevenfold
The title definitely focuses on what time I would wake up, but I'm not much for Avenged's "singing" at this point in their career. The guitars once again and the double bass drum pedal would definitely get me up and going.

* First day at school: DMV by Shane Koyczan
"I'm a resonable guy, but I've just experienced some very unreasonable things."
Perfect for the feeling of "pointlessness" at the first day at school and trying to impress everyone that the summer did so much for you and you're someone new, but knowing that they only remember the old you.

* Falling in love: The Road I'm On by 3 Doors Down
Who knew that falling in love was going to be like feeling helpless and lost. But hey, it's the same road we're on... If this is what falling in love is like, I dread what breaking up is going to be like.

* Breaking up: Lyndon (Movement III) by Dredg
I love this freaking band. The song has no vocals but is a hopeful song, that this is not the end. This band is what you'd call art rock, which seems an interesting conundrum but they pull it off. As the song moves on, it gets harder, more driving, and more complex. It's a perfect song for moving on and up in the world.

* Prom: My Apologies by The Hush Sound
It works in its own way. It's about remember the past and wondering why you've held on when everyone else has moved on. But you've made mistakes and who can say that prom hasn't been a fucked night in some way or another.

* Life’s okay: How Can I Hold On by Stabbing Westward
I doubt anyone would think this title spells out a way to say that "Life's Okay." As the song starts, you find out that he's lost his love and he's still waiting, feeling nothing but cold and bitter resentment. Something tells me that life is not going to be okay if you're listening to this song.

* Mental breakdown: Love Song (Unplugged) by Korn
"Love song for the dear departed. Headstone for the dear departed. Head trip for the mortal earthbound. One sip of the blood I've found."
Yeah, this is definitely a breakdown. Guess we're losing ourselves even more than we thought.

* Driving: The Wretched (Live) by Nine Inch Nails
The driving beat behind it and the piano help moves you forward. A perfect driving song that has you nodding your head with the beat.

* Flashback: The Bridge by The Knife
Once again another instrumental track that definitely lends itself to a flashback. Synth keyboard and driving beats will definitely leave you nostalgic for the old new wave days.

* Getting back together: Only You by Portishead
"It's only you who can tell me apart and it's only you who can turn my wooden heart . . ."
Although the music lends itself to sadness, their something bitter sweet with the return of a lost one. The lyrics are perfect and it's easy to lose yourself in it.

* Wedding: The Long Run by the Eagles
What do you guys think? It could work, but it's not really the wedding song. Maybe the initial love song, but I don't think it'd work that well for the whole wedding bonding song.

* Birth of child: The Egg and You (from Cowboy Bebop) by the Seatbelts
Hilarious name for the birth of the child. It's a jazzy tune that makes me happy in my central area. It's upbeat and sounds like the performers are having a blast playing it.

* Final battle: Paranoid Eyes by Pink Floyd
Not exactly a driving anthem to battle to the death. In fact, it's a bad anthem to die to as it keeps talking about how much of a coward you are.

* Death scene: Unprotected Sex With Multiple Partners by Against Me!
This would have been a much better final battle fight song that anything else. I guess I'm going to go out with a blast. The song has nothing to do with the title, but still it's a great title to go out to.

* End credits: Afterthoughts by Godhead
Like we entered this movie, with powerful beats and a driving score . . . we're pulled out of this misery in the same way.

"Sifting through the ashes of my life, I thought I found the one that I could always trust. You've taken everything and left me here with nothing. And I don't believe that I, could ever be with you. And I don't believe that we, could ever be together."

Somehow I think most of these songs were off the mark by one, but that's what you get when the local geek just shuffles your music and gives you the random shit it chooses.

Enjoy kids.